I guess that my blog loyal readers already know a good part of my character. I always preach about peace and forgiveness. I admire Jesus Christ as a person for his message of love. I adore Ghandi for leading his nation in a peaceful matter to achieve their independence. I don’t like an eye for an eye, and I support turning the other cheek (in a strength matter).
Things are easy said than done. It bothers me that at a personal level I find my ego preventing me from doing what I preach for. I call for peace at a national level while I find myself weak to forget about a silly behaviour of a friend.
I do forgive, but I find it hard to forget. When I am offended, I try to avoid offending back, but I also find it difficult to initiate any kind of peaceful initiative. One has to be so strong in order to turn the other cheeck. Stronger than his own ego.
Instead, I usually, and in order not to make a war, keep some distance. I ignore. I hold my feelings. I become cold. I wait for an initiative from the other side. Mainly because I don’t feel myself mistaken. It is a red line for my ego. To my pride. No matter what I would lose in the process. Even friendship, which I value the most.
I didn’t think that I would be posting anything this week, but a friend’s post triggered me to write. I find it funny that he mostly post when we fight. I am not sure how many of you have gone into trouble because of his blog. I know that a blog is a personal space for its owner, but it is also a public space as well. When I mention someone in my blog, does that mean it is my way of sending an indirect message to him?
Can blogging be a mean of sending a message to someone that you prefer not to confront face to face?
How many of you find it bothering when your personal stuff is posted on a public blog? Sometimes it doesn’t have to mention you by name. Most of the blog readers won’t realize who the person’s posting are talking about, but you know that he is talking about you. He is making a discussion about your personal issue with public. While you stand there reading what he wrote, trying to ignore what you think is wrong in what he said, and holding yourself from engaging in the discussion because you just don’t want to make the situation any worse.